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Having ups and downs like I do, Music is the one thing I can Always turn to. It expresses so much emotion. Most just roll their eyes at that statement... but I believe it. And it's not only in classical either. When I was in choir I always made sure I knew what the lyrics ment, and even if they were in a diffrent language I made sure I had a good idea what they ment. I believe Music has a bit of soul in it... Okay not all, not the ones singing about sex money and drugs... Thats the worst of all music... I recently fell in love with Bollywood, Yes that is a type of movie, but the music in them is amazing... My favorite? 'Jai Ho' Not only is Bollywood music great, but the dancing is amazing. If I could dance like that I would be so happy!! Even their hand motions are so exact! It just makes me want to dance!! And Remember, Don't Quit
Changes aren't just in a person's life, but also in other things as well. Winter, spring, summer, and fall (Fall being my favorite!) bring major changes (at least in Minnesota!).... Unless you drive... Then there are only two seasons... Winter and Construction season! Winter brings cool air, frozen water that we call snow, falling down from the sky, filling the roads, freezing the waters. It brings kids crossing their fingers for a snow day so they can have snowball fights, and go sledding. Then there's the semi-season between winter and spring, where everything melts, making jeans dirty and kids always seem to track mud into the house! Spring comes and brings flowers and green grass. Kids know school is going to be out soon, they get restless, wanting to be outside and running. Summer brings hot and humid weather-Unless its 2009, it feels more like October now! Swimming pools are filled, sprinklers are on with kids running through them. Fall, my all time favorite. The weather is the best, all you need is a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt. the leaves change color and day's get shorter, but no one cares. Bonfires are lit, campers go out, and the air is so crisp it would make anyone happy. I look at my life three months ago... April... I was lost confused and not knowing how to change the part of me I didn't like... I found my... well sounding cheesy... Angel... I love him to death... He knows everything about me, and still loves me and would do anything for me. How did I get so lucky? I as myself that several times a day. Meeting him has turned my life rightside up again. I'm not sick with worry about someone cheating on me, or having to deal with the bullshit and lies. It feels so right, this is one change I'm glad I made, It makes me happy to think about where I came from and where I am now. Although I do regret some of my past, I can't change it, I can only look to the future. Look to the future and smile, Knowing whatever is thrown my way I'm strong enough to get through it and live, smiling, and knowing I have people who love me. And Remember, Don't Quit
I need to learn not to get my hopes up, it never works out for me... I mean jobs, friends, family, guys, etc... I mean really? I need to teach myself to just not care anymore, is that possible? I wish I didn't have to feel anymore... HAH, a girl can dream right? Sitting in class just gives me time to think, I dont like that... I mean I'm 18, so what?? My maturity level is much higher then that. I just need to learn to take a deep breath and not care, just smile... well fake one... My day is the same every day, every time... I mean where do I have time to find someone... And not to mention wtf i dunno anymore. My standards are high... but not unreasonable... I mean, is a car, job, and MAYBE a good education asking too much? I sit here listen to the teacher drall on about nothingness...talking in circles and my head hurts, I just want to go home... This teacher pisses me off... I just want to yell at someone, and well... be held... And Remember, Don't Quit
Older guys, Guys with kids, why do I always go towards this type?? I mean yes I know my reasons... Older guys are more mature, know what they want, can have an intellegent convorsation with them... well most... And if they have kids... Well I want my own... and There ya go, instant family. I'm so scared of attachment, its not me... And I don't know how to get over it. It's not like i'm trying... maybe its just that I just haven't found the right guy... In my opinion, not to 'toot my own horn' but I'm mature... I'm not looking for a fling (Well... in the long run, but right now I dont know what I want), I want a guy I can be with for... well a long time, who can say forever anymore? With divorce rates at 50% no one is really going to ever know, unless they force themselves. And Remember, Don't Quit
Why can’t there be a button to make us forget the past? Its so hard to overcome what should be the easy. But when you give your heart and soul to someone, then they turn and fuck you over its hard to forget. I can’t commit anymore… it just doesn’t work, it scares me. I don’t wanna get hurt anymore. And Remember, Don't Quit
This song... I love it... I smile everytime I hear it... I wish I could feel this way... My favorite line in the song is 'To know that I can say I love you/In any given time or place' Honestly the first time i heard this song it was on the pok'emon 2000 soundtrack... Sad I know... But its such an amazing song.. Everybody's looking for that somethingOne thing that makes it all completeYou find it in the strangest placesPlaces you never knew it could be Some find it in the face of their childrenSome find it in their lover's eyesWho can deny the joy it bringsWhen you found that special thingYou're flying without wings Some find it sharing every morningSome in their solitary livesYou find it in the words of othersA simple line can make you laugh or cry You find it in the deepest friendshipThe kind you cherish all your lifeAnd when you know how much that meansYou've found that special thingYou're flying without wings So impossible as they may seemYou've got to fight for every dream'Cause who's to knowWhich one you let goWould have made you complete Well, for me it's waking up beside youTo watch the sunrise on your faceTo know that I can say I love youIn any given time or placeIt's little things that only I knowThose are the things that make you mine And it's like flying without wings'Cause you're my special thingI'm flying without wings And you're the place my life beginsAnd you'll be where it endsI'm flying without wingsAnd that's the joy you bringI'm flying without wings Oh goodness I dunno what is going on.. I seem to have attachement issues.. WTF is up with that?! I don't like it, it's not me... I don't like it... Life sucks some times... Everything is going down hill, when do things flatten out?? This will be intresting with two jobs now and school full time... I guess it could be worse.. but still... I just need it all to even out, not to be scared shitless when I look at my bank statement... Please? And Remeber, Don't Quit
I don't get attached
I don't want a relationship unless you can show me all guys aren't the same
Prove that you won't play me
And promising doesn't mean shit to me
you have to be nothing short of amazing to keep me the least bit interested
Yeah, my standards are high as fuck... You still willing to stick around?And Remember, Don't Quit
