Bi-Polar?

How can I go from being so happy, and care free on MINUTE to just shit the next? I don't get it... I am singing and dancing to the music and the next thing I know I want to cry... then again I was talking about my kinda ex... Fuck him! I just wanna sleep... but I dont want to be alond... how stupid is that? I need someone to be here with me, a shoulder to cry on... but NADA!!! Men suck sometimes... I'd do anything for someone to curl up with, for them just to listen as I cry and rant, they wouldnt even have to understand... Just be there for me, Not think i'm crazy, and just let me cry. Someone who I could cry infront of, rant to... I dont complain infront of people, but I want someone that I can.. Is that selfish?

It takes a lot for me to open up to someone... I just don't, it's not me... It takes a long time for me to cry infront of someone... to let my emotions show... HAH what a fucking joke... WHO CARES?! I dont know what to do any more... fuck it all, fuck life fuck fuck fuck

I cried infront of him, And he told me lies while he held me and wiped away my tears... I knew he was lieing but I followed my heart and not my head... and now I'm scared to become attached again... I know for a fact the next time I start to become close to a guy i'll pull myself away, because of him... and he doesnt even care... fuck it all....

And Remember, Don't Quit