Life...

I guess I'm your average 18 year old, I have my problems, my likes, dislikes, good times and bad times... but why do I still feel this way? I mean if everyone feels this way why arent there more... hell I dont know... I think i'm the only single one out of ALL of my friends, go figure... And I dont know If i'm still in love with this guy or not... I dont think so, but i have no idea... there is the saying 'dont make someone a priority when they only make you an option' and well... that exactly what I did, and got hurt for it.

I have to admit, I put off going to bed because I hate sleeping alone... there is just something about being able to curl up with someone in the middle of the night, and wake up next to them in the morning that is amazing. Curling up with a dog or a pillow isnt the same as with a guy... I use to have that... I could, but I have a problem with 'FWB' the last one I fell for him, his family, and his kids... I admit I am trying to distance myself from some guys because If I get to know them I may start to like them and that leads to me getting hurt... but what else am I going to do?

I hate this whole 'you need to find the ONE for you'... Why can't we already know, be done, be happy? Life is shit... but we only have one life to live... I think... but thats a subject for another day...

And Remember, Don't Quit