Disappointed

I tried to change... We'll I'm trying... I had one set back today... I need to do this, this one part of my personality I can't stand... I hate it... It was never a problem untill i didn't have him, the jackass I fell in love with... and now I hate who I'm turning into... I'm going to be strong and get through this... I know no matter what I will have one amazing friend at my back, helping me... I hope he doesn't hate me... we all slip up sometimes right? Change is hard... But this is something I HAVE to do, I dont have a choice about this. I'm disturbed by this part of my personality, and thats why i need to change... I need people behind me... but most people dont know this side of me... and I dont know if i'm strong enough to do this alone... Hopfully the one I know... well hope... is behind me will be...And Remember, Don't Quit