Hate this feeling...

I hate feeling like this... Lost confused, all I want to do is curl in bed and cry... But I won't let myself break, I can't, its stupid. All I need is someone to curl up with, to make me happy... I'm finally just letting things happen when they happen, I'm not looking for anything any more. But times like this is when I snap at people, stay quiet, i'm not myself. I hate working at the mall sometimes, seeing all the couples holding hands and kissing... its so annoying... okay yes I would be doing that If I had someone who was okay with showing PDA... but still when you are alone its hard. I know I'm young, And I'm just letting things happen, there are times when I just wanna say screw it and go back to my 'old ways' just to have someone... But I'm being strong... I have to be, not only for myself, but for my family so I'm not lieing to them, and for my little sister... God forbid she follows in my footsteps... Speaking of my sister I'm so scared she's going to end up on jerry springer show... She has such a little attitude... And Remember, Don't Quit